Second
life is what they call it when they experience some sort of redemption from a
dark hopeless state or when they have been saved from an impending. As for me,
second life is every waking day I breathe out to see life’s wonders.
I was
out from the loop for a month or two due to circumstances which drag me to
depression and extreme anxiety. I got knocked down but work problems and
personal struggles of being away from home. Instead of focusing on my goals and
where I want to be, I dwell on the bad things that happened to me and I found
myself in a very bad space. When things are out of control, I decided to seek
professional help and hoped for a second life to come.
Anxiety,
depression, and lack of self-esteem are the hardest to battle. I have to work
with my counselor tightly on how to validate my thoughts which are causing the
stir inside of me. He guided me along the way and helped me understand why I am
feeling that way. He also aided me in re-framing my mind to align with my
reality. The first two weeks were quite tough; getting that second life of
hopes and mental stability was my biggest challenge.
Second
life came after a month when I finally (somehow) manage my thoughts and how
they create my feelings or emotions. Every time I get a thought that has the
potential to devastate me, I challenge the thought and replace it with
something close to my reality and constantly evaluate it.
Today,
I still face tons of difficulties yet I am more equipped than I was yesterday.
Everyday, I wake up full of hopes that eventually I will successfully manage my
thoughts with ease and respond to circumstances in a more positive manner. It does
not take one single night or event that changes my whole life to the better. On
a daily basis, I progress and become better and that’s for me a second life to
be thankful for.
Today
is a great day to be grateful of this opportunity to come back writing with
great passion. Though it took me some days to recover from my hold backs, I am
here. I am living the second life God has given me.
